Why You Feel Off-Track — And the Exact Frequency That Brings You Back

QiSong
Nov 26
2 min read

Every one of us arrives with a sound.

Not a literal one —

but a vibration, a tone, a frequency woven into the bones before our first breath.

It’s the music our soul hums quietly beneath the noise of everyday life.

Over time, that sound becomes buried.

By expectations.

By trauma.

By survival.

By the echoes of other people’s stories.

By generational patterns we never consciously agreed to carry.

And yet… the body remembers.

This week, as I sat with my own natal chart — not as astrology in the usual sense, but as a circle of inner parts — something inside me softened.

My Capricorn Moon reminded me how much of my life was shaped by the part that had to be strong, responsible, self-sufficient long before I should have been.

My Cancer Sun showed me the seeker inside me — the one who protects me by finding meaning, weaving spirituality through every breath, every movement, every moment.

My Cancer North Node pulled me gently forward, as it always has, whispering:

“This way… toward softness, toward truth, toward home.”

My Scorpio Ascendant pulsed like a drumbeat — the part that insisted I walk through the dark with courage instead of denial. The part that kept saying, “Keep going. There’s more healing to do.”

And then there was my Mercury in Leo in the 9th —

the flame in my chest that made this book possible,

the storyteller with a brave voice,

the part that said,

“If you’re going to speak, let it be real.”

When these parts gathered, I realised something profound:

I had been living off-frequency.

Not out of failure.

Not out of weakness.

But because survival sometimes forces us to silence the music we were born to carry.

And that ache we feel —

the restlessness, the sense of being off-script, the quiet sadness we can’t name —